Following last night's meeting, I am grieving.
Grieving for my husband who was publicly torn to pieces by the leadership.
Grieving for the leadership that they could do it in such a manner.
Grieving for the church that they have such leaders.
Grieving for the local community that we cannot serve them because we are too focused on our internal problems.
Grieving for God as we tear His body apart with our lovelessness.
Grieving for the possibilities of something exciting and new which will now not happen.
Grieving that this fellowship never seem to learn from the past, and still think the only solution to problems is a change of pastor.
And grieving for myself that all my hopes and dreams have been destroyed.
Look After The Pence...
9 hours ago
Still praying for you, and hoping you have someone you can offload to [regional minister? mentor? another local pastor's wife?] Somehow the pastor usually handles this savagery slightly better than his wife, who is ripped apart inside just watching what they are doing to him. And I refuse to say anything glib like 'it will get easier' or 'it is all part of God's will for you' I CANNOT believe it is right for Christians to treat others like this. It is WRONG WRONG WRONG and they need to know that. But I AM still praying for you ...
ReplyDeleteThankyou for praying Angela. I'm seeing a counsellor, so have somewhere to offload. I think we're taking it in turns as to who is coping better at any given time...
ReplyDeleteSO relieved to hear you have got some outside help - just keeping it between the two of you would be too much of a strain.
ReplyDeletecheck out http://www.baptistconnexion.org.uk/
as well
love and prayers - especially for your other half- conducting worship on the sunday after a crap church meeting is REALLY hard